Friday, February 25, 2011

1. Unyielding in severity or strictness; unrelenting:
2. Steady and persistent; unremitting:

Relentless would be a great adjective to describe my God. I could write pages and pages about the goodness of God in my life and His relentless pursuit of me. No matter what decisions I have made, no matter the decisions that my parents made, no matter the decisions that others have made that affected my life, He has had good for me and has been steadfast to bring about His plans and will in my life.

My mother was a teen mom. She gave birth to me at the young age of 17 years old. Honestly, having me was probably overwhelming and hard on such a young one. I know that I would not have been ready to be a mama at 17. Only 18 months later she had my sister. Overwhelmed with life and a marriage that was falling apart she left me and my sister and my Dad. During this time I spent a lot of time with my Grandmother (my dad's mother). What a good thing! She loved God and loved to pray and taught me all about Jesus and His love for me. These little teachings would sustain me later when my mother and her mother left the state with us. For two years, my father and his mother had no idea where we were. During this time...I remember lying one night on a porch with a bunch of dogs and actually picturing myself being surrounded by a big bubble. I felt safe. I laid there and thought of the stories my Grandmother told me about Jesus and I talked to Jesus. I knew at three and four years of age He was with me. Through a series of events that ended up in court…my father won custody of me and my sister. I can see now as I look back His protection over me. When I was 5 years old, I knew that I wanted Jesus to be Lord of my life. He had seen me through a very hard time and knew that He would see me through anything else that life would throw my way. I asked my Mother (my father's new wife) to pray with me and we knelt by my bed and I gave the Lord my life and heart. It was the best decision I have ever made and it stuck!!

A thief comes to steal and kill and destroy, but I came to give life—life in all its fullness. -John 10:10

God saved us from these great dangers of death, and he will continue to save us. We have put our hope in him, and he will save us again. -2 Corinthians 1:10

One thing that has always been steadfast and faithful in my life is God. Sure, I have been through some hardships. I have watched my sister suffer with cancer, I have been homeless with all my siblings and parents, camping and then later government shelters and housing, I have seen my Dad leave my mother after 23 years of marriage for another woman and then proclaim that God told him to do it. I have also seen God’s miraculous provision and goodness, reconciliation, healing and forgiveness to my family and myself in all these examples. I can look back on my life and know that it was God that walked us through the hard times. I will say this…not once did I blame God for these things. Not once did I shake my fist and say …why God!!?? I have never been angry with God.  God is good. He did not bring these things my way. There is a god of the world and his name is satan or the devil and he wants to kill us. We live on an earth that has been ravaged by sin and satan’s ways. God is my deliverer, Savior, redeemer, friend, and is relentless in His love for me. I trust Him. He is faithful even when I am unfaithful. He is strong when I am weak. He upholds me with His goodness and love. Give your life to Him. He can be trusted.


1 comment:

Becks said...

Yes and AMEN!.... why are we so misled to think that He gives anything other than LIFE... and to the FULL! Yay.... thanks for sharing